Sunday, June 11, 2006
my thoughts~
if only time wouldn't be so cruel... if only some things don't ever change...
the compiled picture brings back fond memories, really sweet sweet memories ^^ thx oh choucream&choujie! and well... it sorta make me wana write something as well... sorta spur of the moment thgy...
came back from hometown and just sorted out my college stuff, u have no idea how heavy my heart felt... so much heavier than those huge pile of notes and paperworks and books and everythg! me duno how to put them away... somehow, all of these has been a part of me and yet, me dun really wana keep them anymore, itz depressing... now me got them stacked at the side, still duno wutodo...
ya know, itz been few days since our last paper, which was also our last day of college... then, me didnt really feel anything, maybe the feeling havent settled in, maybe me just dun wana be sad again, maybe me was hoping... and praying... that all of these werent true... like i did 1.5yrs ago, after f5, it was almost the same thing, except now me supposed to be stronger, to be able to handle these things better and yet...
thinking back, high school was lots lots more fun and memorable than college, but now that me no longer a college student, it hurts... if given a choice, me prefer dragging myself up early and go college(though always late)... at least me got friends to hang around with, got ppl bullying me, got everythg to complain about, got exams to worry... then after college and on weekends can always hang out with my chouchoufamily my ns friends and all... but me wasnt given that choice...
now me felt so clueless so lost... there's no focus, nothing for me to look forward to everyday... itz so much more different from f5, cuz after graduated, ns was awaiting me, college life was ahead of me... dun tell me uni life is next now, cuz me dreaded that thought, so NO, plz dun mention that in front of me, ever...
think every1 goes through this phase in life, think choujie yeaye santa cyik all experiencing this now & maybe not... me hope choucream enjoying her f6 life to the fullest, me hope jeng gets what she wants next after finishing CAT, me hope peanut really busying urself and having fun with whatever ure doing or whatever u claimed to be doing(ur never-ending excuses)...
me hope... everything will be fine... and thatz me giving myself hope... cuz thatz what left of me besides my chouchoufamily and cutecute frens~
*btw, me didnt cry today*
-xiang sponge-
4 comments
4 Comments:
sempiternal-Leman said...
hehe....
cry?? since when it becomes ur habbit??
anyway....sentimental needs no reason...
ya..it's kinda hard to put everything down especially "gan qing".....
human are 软弱 de ler....
thoughness can only built up thru time.....
erm...my college notes ar....
think most of them threw d...
left 3 files i think....spm also threw d....cauzz think when step into uni...none are being refered back...
may be u just keep sum that u tink u have spent lots of time and memory with it lor...
when u get older that time...perhaps u can flip thru and recall back wat the old days were...
想做个好人~
Pelie said...
Hihi!!
i believe hardship makes u grow up too! when times passes, u grew older, enter new stage of life, meet new ppl, den these will become sweet memories...
p/s: dun throw...notes can sell =p
cheers!!
Bremebe aka P.e.L.i.E.
said...
hey, i never claim stuff, i juz tell them. i'm not like busy all the time, but the thing is tat when i'm free, u're busy, so u never realize the time when i'm enjoying my holiday, k? next time lar, got chance one, i guess... haha!
cher said...
wawah~ keep some notes?! thought u guys would say smthg like :
pour some oil
light a match
and hope the wind
blows everythg away~
btw, don't think me wana grow up ler, like now got so many ppl sayang so nice oh!
and peanut ar, erm... think choujie is right lar, we go find u easier, c la! u so dai pai >_<"
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